Oh, @xcountytravelers, what you have been through! It makes my head spin. Anyone would be struggling emotionally under the circumstances. I am sending you a huge boatload of wellness and strength - everything I can muster to help you be strong and push forward. Depression is very very hard. But it really sounds like you're tackling this, and your health challenges too, and that you really want to make change. That is the start. And you've got plans with your Actifit regimen. Huge kudos to you for that! Often times depression makes it so terribly hard to take that baby step toward action. If you can push through that, you can start a regimen that you can build on.
Fight your way back. You can do it. Find that tiger within!