oh ren, I'm so sorry for noticing your post just now. I'm so sorry for having a hellish year, it's hard maybe but please don't give up. Many people wants you to be strong and well. Many people are keep on loving you. Just share it on steem if you'll feel like very sad.
I hope you'll be fine soon ren, I'll pray for your fast recovery. Take care as always and God bless. Not to spend time on discord because after the typhoon our place having hard time to have a good internet connection.