Oh wow! I hope everything turns out to the good with your CAT scan! Have you heard any hints of mews or meows in your head? Any strange urges to groom your whole body with your tongue? Suddenly craving canned salmon and liver? Two weeks, huh? That's a long time to wait to learn if you're good or bad!
I've done a lot of things in life and some of those things were so fucken stupid and valueless in the grand scheme of things, and part of me wishes I knew what I know now back then. That's impossible though, and so I look at it this way...
If you had make any other decisions than the ones you made back then, it would have set in motion a chain of events that would have altered your life, maybe a little or maybe alot. Every mistake we have made in our past, every decision, every action has led you to be in the very place you are today. You have a great life that you've built by experiences, good and bad, and you are still building that life and working toward that pinnacle of happiness for you and your girl.
I do have regrets, but then I think if I'd have acted differently back then, I probably would be dead now lol
Oh yeah, and congratulations on your retirement date....now that's something to celebrate!!